Friday, October 27, 2006

Answers within

looking up at the sky wondering why
i cry out to the clouds and tell them how
how i feel but i don't know why
they are so gray and unclear
just like my mind on this day
many feeling from different places
happiness with a smile
excitement at a laugh
peace and calmness just by a look
which i like i don't know
waiting for an answer now
but i know where to get this answer
the one like look for is with in this
mind that is clear and feels so rainy
but i can throw the fog a light
a light of happiness but not that one
its pure excitement that will fallow
but its not that one, pure light throw the fog
and there it is clam sweet and pure
a feeling long lost and believed to never return
there is is here now but i want to grab it
but how can i now, i fear a fear from the past
to reach out and grab it at last
but will it disappear like away with out a Trace
only now i start to see a new way to this peace
come oh come now i a wait you now

Thursday, October 19, 2006

Tiered

tiered, always feeling down
never having energy to move around
sleeping in place i should not sleep
both mentally and physically tiered
i would love so rest but can i find it
and where can i, i look for it in my
my bee at night but i get up every morning
i try to relax with my friends
but they are worthless
all i to is get tiered of them
time passes by and it all stays here
so tiered i can not write
morning is like the middle of then night
good night oh good night

Monday, October 16, 2006

Mind shake

i feel a little relaxed but not batter
one of the things are over now
but i only wished i solve my problems
nothing i will do can solve the problems
in the back of my head filled with ideas
no more voices i cry out to you
stop the sleepless nights
can i have peace once and for all
but no i may not i have to find more
answers then before to things i want to know
i am not stupid i can see through all those lies
don't act like i am walking with out any mind
i see every thing lies and all come clean
or one day be wiped clean
i have to say my mind is filled with these ideas
that hurt me and causes pain to
every one around me with out see who or why
cry only if another tear can fall from my eye
and i wish only some can walk away from myself
a part of me that i don't like end this all
no more pain no more games no more fear
all over when the time is right they will all go away

Sunday, October 15, 2006

Voices

My head hurts it will not stop
voices from the past hunting me
the sights I see kill me
the whole world I see comes from my past to hunt me
seeing the faces that I see every day that I have been trying to run away from
people that I cant stand always around me
not being able to get away from this place that I have been in for some time
I hope I can see some where I have never been
crying is a feeling that is with me
things that causes me to think always happening around me
the voices in my head are becoming more painful thing to me
hate is some thing always feel
all I want is a little peace from this mind of mine
I want to get a way from this place so bad I cant do anything
I need some peace from this voices in my head
always thinking how and why, driving me crazy
nothing I do calm it down always hearing these voices
hope has left me for ever now and I cant see a future for me
I can even do what I must do with out think why or how to do it
simple a mentally destroyed by the voices in my head

Friday, October 13, 2006

It arrived

It took some time but it finally came
why did it come I don't know
I have ran to the ends of the world
to get away from what is inevitable
it came with out me knowing about it
such evil such hate for what has happened
should have ever came
I hid it away for some time and
got as far away cant run no more for
it has found me and destroyed me
cry, let the tears of the past flow
with hope that this will be the end
to what has happened in the past
no more hunting and torment
it took years for one tear
oh sweet soul cry your sorrow away

Thursday, October 05, 2006

Rage of a wild fire

Here I am fire running throw me
I am stand ing right in front of you
why don't you say some thing like always do
or is it fearthat runs throw you
cry little boy I am here to do some thing
and I will hurt you if you do or don't
you are my target and that the end of it
I want to see you try to run from me you little shit
I am here for the time it take you finish you
the fire it burning throw me
devouring me to the point I about to release it
on to you just to get rid of you
the rage the hate that it with in me
and I will get rid of all of it just for you
your death will be seen by all and I may
be the one standing above you then
time to die, I will hunt you out until
you are where I want down in the ground.

Sunday, October 01, 2006

Eyes of a queen

Oh, good morning those eyes of an queen
the ruler of all beauty that is in this world
the one who calls to me in the morning
"good morning" for the first time I am in shock
I wonder for some time was it a mistake or
was the queen talking to some one other then me
that is what I thought and I was for sure it could not be me
for I am not worth this treat which is called blessing
but I was a subject at her will sitting with her but
far away for I still don't believe with in my self
but I look up for I cant not look at such beauty
and I find those eyes looking upon me
and she looks away from me in shyness
so I look away and there she does it again
and again for the longs period of time
I only hope I may have a word with the queen
but before I can get close she is gone
I look for any sign of her beauty but I can find her
and as I give up and start to walk away
I see her, her yes have changed filled with tears
tears of lose or sorrow, I don't know for I am
only human and she I much more then that
I feel like I have failed once again and walk away
now I will make it up the next time I see this angel
just one more chance and I will not fail you again