waiting for a ride

hands spinning around, no time in this place
before i sit down life has passed by and away
nothing new, nothing changed, starts and ends the same way
crying here, crying no, out for help but is all the same
i see some beauty the only way out of this loop we call life
away to change a way to beautify this place i call life
there is a long distance a hard way to go far from here
i start on my way and i get close it it then all in the blink of an eye
it was far again fight my way back but hard was the road this time around
i am far again and asked for help but know one can but for one
and they are far from what i need and can not help
so far way from the place i started from sitting here
sitting alone in the dark back at the beginning of the road
nothing new, nothing changes, same as i always been
cry out now i will not change for life does not want or like to change
sad thoughts enter this mind and hopes disappear until i am blind
no change just the same far way from hell i am shamed
for i have not been able to reach haven and cant go to hell
bye oh bye to these thoughts of my mind cry away
like if i am died here not to change good bye