i was not ment to see?

as i walk, by the chance of god, i saw what i saw
my past with a new future, and finally in rest
so nerves that it was funny to see
i thank the lord for i am free
no more fear no more running away
the end of all those dirty games we use to play
freedom of the mind no more worries of the past
i must say i am glad for that
now that i can move forward i shall run that way
this is one happy day but i don't know
how long it shall last, for now i shall live the moment
the smile of freedom is great today
good-bye of wight of my past
may god be with you finally and at last